Mind over matter,

What time is it? Nine? Fuck it's late, what did I do last night? Oh yeah, Corona. Oh shit man. Ok let me make a coffee. It's fine. It's important to stay positive. Tina said I should keep a routine. I woke up so late though. Why am I so tired still? Ok coffee. Gratitude. Yes, keep positive. Healthy family, healthy friends, a roof over my head, work is going well, body still intact. Ok, I can do this, sure nothing's changed. I've always been isolated anyway. My freelance life finally makes sense. Let me just check the updates. Just quickly, I won't get too obsessed today. Just death rates. I should keep informed. Information is power. Oh fuck, oh fuck. Four hundred more dead in Italy. Ok stop, no more updates. Just a quick facebook check. Aw, look, the dolphins are out. There you go, nature's happy. Yes, after this is over we'll all be better humans. I'll make sure I do my part. Yes, when this is over. Ok, now I have to work. Keep my routine, life goes on, clients are still waiting. I said I would finish his logo. I'll sit at my desk. I just feel so unmotivated. What's wrong with me? I'm being so unprofessional. I've let myself go. I should be more professional. Things haven't stopped just because of some virus. First a shower. Hmmm... water pressure's low. I wonder what that means? What does that mean? I should google water pressure. Maybe something's going on. Oh no, maybe there isn't enough water. What? Oh come on, there's always enough water. Is there? I should google it. Ok, work time, just one more ciggie before I start. Fuck this cough is getting bad. Do I have it? Maybe I have it. Is it a dry cough? Feels like it could be a dry cough. I'm also tired. I should have taken better care of my body. I should have stopped smoking a long time ago. I should stop smoking. Do I have enough tobacco? Will they stop selling tobacco? Do I have enough food? Two tins of tomatoes, one tomato paste, three packets of pasta, no four, six onions, garlic, four lemons, six eggs, yoghurt, honey, coffee, olive oil, I have a lot of olive oil, ok that's good, olive oil and coffee I'm ok. I'm hungry, I should eat. I should make a pie. I have time now to make a pie. I'll call Tina first, she'll know what to do. Hey, no it's ok, no Tinaki, you don't have to be a cheerleader. I know, it's pretty hardcore. Just take a break. Nothing is going to happen if you just take a break. Take some time off. Relax, please stay healthy. Ok we'll speak later. Oh man. This is not good. I should message the girls, see how they're doing. Oh God I wish I hadn't, now my stomach hurts. I should sit on the balcony. Get some oxygen. Water my plants. It's so quiet. The square is empty. There's just that crazy dude in the opposite flat sitting at the edge of his bed overlooking the square like he always does. He feels like a bad omen. Like he's been waiting for this his whole life. Like he knew. Ugh, I'm going inside. Ok, logo, pie, must stay positive, must keep a routine. Oh man, I'm just so exhausted. Maybe I have it.